Bandsy was in high spirits as she was going along in her stream. She had only started a few moments ago and had already gotten into the grove of the rpg she had been playing for the past few streams. She was rapidly approaching the endgame. She had arrived at the beginning of what might have been a long final dungeon when she decided to take a break.
“Ok guys this looks like it’s about to get real so we’re going to stop and do an ad read,” Bandsy smiled as she was pretty upbeat today, the coming check from Stuffies was doing a lot for her mood, and the new cute print of pull-ups she was wearing was having more of an effect than she would like to admit. She pressed a button on her keyboard and the typical stream banner was changed to her ad banner, but instead of the usual graphics for the Discrete pull-ups there was a graphic that featured the flowers, skulls, and hearts from the Chic Flowers pull-ups.
"This stream is brought to you by Stuffies and their Chic Flowers pull-ups,” Bandsy said before looking down at a small script she had written, as the spiel was different than what she was used to giving.
“Chic Flowers is a fun print for all you bigger girls. If you’re a little rebel into punk music then these pull-ups are for you. It’s got a more mature flower like pattern that still has that hint of childish with these fun little skulls and hearts. It’s all on a Stuffie’s pull-up too, so you caregivers can be sure that your little rebels are protected, and your little punks can go to their concert without having to worry with the potty,” Bandsy put her script back into the pocket of the skirt she was wearing.
Under that skirt was the very same Chic Flowers pull-up she had just finished talking about. Bandsy thought it appropriate to wear it for the stream, even if no one would be seeing it. The pattern on the pull-up had inspired Bandsy’s outfit somewhat. A purple band tee and a black skirt. She stopped short of some fishnet gloves, thinking that might have been a little too much.
“I do have to say I have tried the Chic Flowers,” Bandsy started. “It’s got the same core, I guess, as the Discrete’s so it works just as well as those do. I don’t really know about all that little rebel stuff but I do think the pattern is hella cute,” Bandsy took the time to grab the sample pull-up she had ready and showed it to her camera. “See it’s got these big flowers and also these little skulls and hearts that are awesome,” Bandsy put the pull-up away after showing it off. “If they had this on a t-shirt, I’d rock it at a concert for sure. Now that I thinking about it skipping those nasty ass concert porta potties is a plus too. Anyway, rambling is over. Chic Flowers are good give them a try if you’re interested.”
With her ad read done Bandsy took a moment to read her chat scrolling by. She had expected some certain reactions. Normally she would have wanted Mack there to help moderate, but the short notice of this ad read meant she couldn’t reschedule it to a time when he would be available. The main messages weren’t unexpected. Lots of chatters were pointing out, with various funny emotes, that Bandsy was wearing baby diapers now.
“I mean I wouldn’t really call these baby or diapers,” Bandsy answered the messages. “It’s not really a baby print, and they're pull-ups. Besides I thought I said that we weren’t going to be talking about this.” Bandsy threatened, but she quickly realized that if she actually did start to ban people who were talking about this, she would lose 90% of her audience.
“I guess we are talking about this,” Bandsy said with a defeated sigh. “Yes, I’m wearing a Chic Flowers pull-up, and yes, I guess you could call that a baby print. I’m not just wearing it because Stuffies is paying me either. A girl gets bored of the same print over and over. I’m not going to wear Discrete’s forever. It’s not like these are that baby either just a little childish, it’s just something different.”
Bandsy took a time to read chat again after her explanation. Chat was filled with a whole lot of sarcastic assurances that everyone believed her, they obviously didn’t.
“I’ve said this before too. I could be wearing the thickest babiest diaper ever and it doesn’t make me an adult baby unless I say so, and it wouldn’t make this a diaper stream or me a diaper streamer either. I just wanted a different print than what I usually wear.”
Bandsy looked back at chat confident she had shut down the discussion, at least enough to move on but a common reaction got her goat.
“Oh my god guys no. I said I 'could be' wearing a diaper,” Bandsy emphasized could be. “It was a hypothetical I’m not wearing a diaper I’m wearing a pull-up!” Bandsy blushed a little as she had accidentally said that fact out loud. The blush gave her time to read the chat again. “No! we are not going to check that I am wearing a pull-up! I just told you this is not a diaper stream!” Bandsy frowned a little as she read a particular chat message that caught her eye.
“It would only be a diaper stream if you were wearing a diaper right?” the message ended with a smug emoji. Bandsy couldn’t help but laugh at that, and at how invested she had suddenly gotten, and at how it shouldn’t matter. The brief chuckle gave her enough pause to rethink and reconsider her reaction. She had been on the internet long enough to know how these things worked. The Streisand effect was more pronounced and so far, she had just been feeding into that. The more she reacted to the comments, the more comments she would get. The best thing to do was to ignore them, or only playfully acknowledge them. Given her reactions already, ignoring them wasn’t really an option. She would have to play along.
Even if all of the chat thought she was wearing diapers while she streamed it shouldn’t matter to Bandsy. It was like she said, it was only a diaper stream when she made it a diaper stream. No matter what she had on under her skirt, if she was hosting a gaming stream it was still a gaming stream, and she was still a gaming streamer despite her chat’s insistence that it was a diaper stream and she was a diaper streamer.
“You know I think you got me there spikeyGoodra,” Bandsy laughed. “I guess it wouldn’t be a diaper stream because I’m not wearing a diaper. It would be a pull-up stream. I’d be a pull-up streamer,” Bandsy said as she casually continued playing her game. “And we’re going to do what pull-up streamers do in pull-up streams and that’s not talk about their underwear and just play games. It’s kinda similar to gaming streams if you think about it,” Bandsy said with a knowing tone.
“Are you even old enough to play this game?” a snarky chat message rolled by.
“Well, gooby_goose, 3 things. Firstly, yes, I am old enough to play this game. Secondly, this game is actually only rated E 10 if you can believe that. Thirdly, even if I were a diaper streamer the first letter in abdl stands for adult so even then I would still be old enough to play it. How do you think SmolSally gets the alcohol for her special drinks?”
The chat erupted at this mention, wondering how often Bandsy had been watching SmolSally.
“Oh, calm down guys I only saw one of her streams,” Bandsy explained. “It was her stream about the baby bees I think. I had heard she was doing a Stuffies sponsor too and I was curious.” Bandsy read chat again. “I mean I thought the stream was cute. The idea of like a custom baby bottle drink is a fun one.”
A few teasing comments were in the chat.
“It did look good. Of course, if I had it, it’d be in a cup. Oh, look a mini boss,” Bandsy said thankful for the distraction in the game. Her new tactic of just running with the diaper girl conversation was somewhat working, as fewer and fewer chatters were talking about talking about diapers and pull-ups and more were commenting about the game.
With the distraction of the mini boss Bandsy was able to ignore the messages of chatters that were chatting about things that weren’t the game, mainly her underwear. It was annoying how often this topic was coming up despite her insistence otherwise. Bandsy had to constantly keep her emotions in perspective and remind herself of what chat would devolve into if she took it all too seriously.
Unfortunately for the current circumstance, this rpg was pretty easy all things considered. It was more of a story experience than a gameplay one and she defeated the mini boss first try. This was unfortunate because it did not allow the diaper talk in chat to fully die out. There was the faintest hint of a frown on her face, but Bandsy did her best to keep going.
“Another boss down,” Bandsy said cheerfully. “Wasn’t that the corrupted chick from the hospital? That was sad but honestly the saddest part is she doesn’t even get to be a major boss, she’s a first mini boss. Poor girl.” Chat rolled on laughing at Bandsy’s reaction with only a few die hards still trying to steer the conversation back to diaper talk. Bandsy’s earlier frown turned into a smirk. In a few more minutes she could just quietly ban these particular try hards, who were starting to border on to creeper territory anyway.
“Someone tell me is this a two or three boss dungeon,” Bandsy asked chat as she kept playing. “I mean it looks important so I’d guess three. I’m just trying to plan.” Chat rolled on with the consensus of three. Bandsy nodded at the answer and formulated a plan. When she got to the door of the second boss, which would no doubt have a save spot and plentiful healing opportunities, she would be able to stop playing for a brief rest. When she stopped playing, she would engage in some idle chat while she stealthily banned the last few problem chat members without raising too much of a fuss. It was a solid plan. She missed Mack right about now, who would have been able to stealth ban while she was playing, but she had to role with the punches. The thought that she might eventually get enough Stuffies money to afford some mods that weren’t her friends that she roped into the job was appealing.
As Bandsy was feeling the peak satisfaction from her plan she felt a sensation that would foil all those plans. She needed to pee, and she had a sneaking suspicion that her pull-up was already wet and she had forgotten about it. A quick subtle poke at the diaper confirmed it. She silently cursed herself while still maintaining her happy face. Her whole plan would be ruined as she’d have to go change her pull-up instead of moderate. Not only that, but getting up to change would no doubt start the diaper talk up again in force. On top of everything she was having to struggle with holding it in while she waited for the mini boss room. She was more than a little annoyed that she was having to deal with that while wearing a pull-up, but she knew from Theo that Stuffies wouldn't be happy if she leaked on stream without showing the pull-up was wet beforehand. A voice in the back of her head wondered if Theo might have been on to something suggesting she wear a diaper during her stream. If Theo had asked her to put it on right now, while she was struggling holding her bladder, Bandsy would be inclined to say yes.
Bandsy was able to play her holding in her urine off for the most part, but when she finally got to the second pre boss save room the desperation in her voice broke through.
“Ok guys we’re taking a short break. Be right back!” Bandsy knew that sounded weird as she quickly scurried off. There was no saving it either as she started peeing as soon as she stood up. Thankfully she was safely off screen because she had to quickly threw off her skirt, feeling what was coming.
Pull-ups could reliably hold two wettings, but only when she didn’t hold it. Now she was releasing a more than full bladder into an already wet pull-up. Leaking was inevitable, and the inevitable did happen. Bandsy groaned as she felt a trickle of liquid run down her leg from the saturated pull-up. By the time she was done these was a small but noticeable puddle beneath her. She further wasted a significant amount of time waiting for the pull-up to absorb as much as it could before trying to take it off, and she would be wasting even more time cleaning herself and the puddle up since she didn’t really like the idea of finishing her stream covered in urine and with a puddle in her room stinking up the place.
With the deed done and as much urine in the pull-up as possible, Bandsy carefully slid the pull-up off and got to work cleaning, careful to stay out of view of her web cam. She wondered what would be worse, chat seeing her in a leaking pull-up or just naked. She was more than a little annoyed as she started cleaning up the spot on her flooe. It was something of a negative stereotype that streamers often had their streams be nothing more than an empty chair, and Bandsy’s chat was getting significantly more of the dreaded empty chair than if she had just used the bathroom. Not to mention this totally killed any hope that the diaper talk would die down.
Eventually Bandsy got the spot and herself cleaned up and dressed herself in another pull-up, this time her usual Discrete pull-up. The leaking experience had somewhat soured her feeling on the new prints, for the moment anyway. Bandsy had no doubt the feeling was only temporary. Making double sure her pull-up was covered, Bandsy finally returned to her chair.
“All right guys I’m back,” Bandsy sighed as she sat down. She figured that she had already broken her no diaper talk rule earlier, and the comments were inevitable, so she decided just to be honest and try to roll with it. “Yeah, I had to change pull-ups, that takes a while.” Bandsy said as casually as she could. “Yeah yeah I know guys. Get it all out of your system,” Bandsy said with a sigh as the expected teasing replies started coming. With an effort to keep up her devil may care attitude about the whole thing Bandsy was able to smile and chuckle through most of the comments.
“You guys gotta wrap this up we do have a mini boss to do you know,” Bandsy said impatiently tapping her fingers. “Bandsy’s a baby! Bandsy’s a baby!” she said mocking the chat. “Honestly, I don’t know how you guys can accuse me of being the baby here, you are the ones hung up on it. I haven’t said anything about it.” Bandsy smirked at what she felt was a comment well delivered. Chat would disagree about how effective it was.
Bandsy did give her chat a few more minutes, but when things didn’t calm down, she had to take charge.
“All right I’m not gonna wait all day for ya’ll to grow up we’re movin’ on to the boss,” Ravel said with a dramatic gesture as she started moving her character into the room. There was still some chatter about how lengthy pull-up change but most of it had transitioned into talk about the upcoming boss. Though a few comments were speculating if Bandsy’s pull-up would survive the encounter. “Oh, this is the thing that killed the hospital lady. How is this not the final boss?” Bandsy exclaimed as she started the battle.
The stream was able to continue mostly as normal, but Bandsy once again did not finish the rpg, stopping at the room before the final boss in the dungeon.
“Ok sorry guys but I am beat we’re going to call it a night here. I’ll probably finish this up after some Call of Honor games with Mack next stream since we just got a boss and some cutscenes to go.” Messages of disappointment came through chat along with one notable accusation.
“Probably would have finished it if you didn’t take so long changing. :/” This message was followed by
“She’s probably ending now so she can go change again.” Bandsy caught both of these messages as well as the barrage of “true” and laughing emoji.
“Maybe I do have to go get changed,” Bandsy said back with snark. “But you know on a pull-up stream we don’t do that kind of thing live, so I’ve got to end the stream to do that. Darn! if I wasn’t a big dumb baby pull-up streamer we could have kept going. You guys keep calling me that though, so I guess that's what I am.” Bandsy tilted her head and gave her chat an overdramatically sad face. “Night guys. You better behave on the next stream I swear.” With a huff Bandsy closed the stream. As much as she hated to admit it, the chat was right, she did need to change again. She had made it through the second mini boss so she at least proved that other chatter wrong, but it wasn’t long after that before she wet again.
All in all, she was a little frustrated, she had talked about her pull-ups way more than she wanted to. At the same time, that seemed to be her solution; not making it be a big deal. Just being honest about it and trying to play it off. It definitely pushed her more into the diaper streamer territory than she ever wanted to go. At the same time part of her found it fun, probably the same part of her that had that fantasy about being put back into diapers. Being honest about the pull-ups let Bandsy be more childish and brattier about it on stream as well, which was fun. Even the teasing she got was a little fun. Maybe being a diaper streamer wouldn’t be that bad. Fun or not it’s not what Bandsy wanted to be. It didn’t fit what her ideal vision of herself was. Then again, the stream she just had also didn’t live up to the ideal vision she had.
Being lost in thought had ended up just making Bandsy frustrated. It was this frustration that made her just give up on thinking about it. She went to get a shower and changed into a new pull-up, hoping the water would wash her frustrations and weird thoughts away for the night.