Chapter 13

Cassidy blushed as Allyson walked into the room. There was no hiding what she was doing. She was a grown woman in a sodden diaper playing in a bouncer and genuinely having fun. Allyson for her part didn’t quite know what to make of it. It had definitely quelled a lot of her frustration from earlier. How could she be mad after what she walked into?

“Glad you’re having fun Cas,” Allyson said tactfully. Cassidy couldn’t say anything .She just blushed. She was having fun in the bouncer, she couldn’t deny it. “Come on let’s get you changed,” Allyson said with a smile. Cassidy was thankful that Allyson wasn’t making a big deal out of it at least, and that she wasn’t as mad as she was before. Allyson opened the play pen and quickly got Cassidy out of the bouncer. “How did you even manage to get in this thing?” Allyson said more to herself.

“Some kids came in and helped me into it,” Cassidy answered regardless.

“So you got help getting in there,” Allyson asserted as the two walked over to the changing table set against the wall of the room. “If you wanted to try it out I would have helped you into it if you asked.” Cassidy didn’t feel like correcting Allyson, even though her assumption that she wanted to go in the bouncer wasn’t accurate. It would just look like she was saving face. She just stayed silent as she laid down on the changing table, not even surprised when Allyson strapped her in. “It’s ok. You don’t have to be embarrassed about it. You looked like you were having fun.” Cassidy grumbled a little. “Ok ok I’ll drop it. Man you really need a change huh? Did you have another accident,” Cassidy pushed Cassidy’s diaper against her. All her attempts to see Cassidy as anything other than a child had failed at this point. She couldn’t help but go through the motions of a diaper change, including all of the motions to help cheer up a pouty child.

“Ally,” Cassidy whined quietly.

“Ok sweetie,” Allyson giggled as she untapped the very wet diaper and removed it. “Let’s get you nice and dry,” Allyson tossed the used diaper in a diaper pail located conveniently close to the changing table and grabbed the extra diaper from her diaper bag the she had sat on the floor by the changing table. She playfully crinkled it in her hands showing it to Cassidy. “Can you raise your tush for me dear?” Cassidy obeyed robotically.

Maybe it was because she had just gotten done playing. Or maybe it’s because she’s recognized these feelings she’s had. Whatever the reason Cassidy was once again engulfed in this happy fuzzy feeling from Allyson’s soft sweet cooing during the change. She was lost in the moment, almost gleefully letting the change go on when something in the back of her head told her she should be protesting all of this.

“And we’re all done,” Allyson said happily patting the front of Cassidy’s diaper. Once she was done she finally looked into Cassidy’s face. A confused, and slightly blank expression greeted her. Looking at Cassidy’s face brought Allyson out of her nanny mode. “Oh,” Allyson blushed as she apologized. “I’m sorry Cas I guess I got into my daycare routine.” Cassidy didn’t answer right away. She looked away from Allyson and blushed for a moment before answering.

“Don’t worry about it,” Cassidy said shakily.

“Are you ok?” Allyson’s concern got a more immediate reaction out of Cassidy.

“Yeah yeah I’m fine I,” She stopped as she tried to get up but the strap held her firmly in place, sending more waves of emotion through her.

“Oh sorry dear,” Allyson quickly released the strap holding Cassidy down, but Cassidy remained in place. “Here sweetie hop up,” Allyson took the initiative and helped Cassidy sit up, and then Cassidy took the rest of the initiative herself to finish stepping down. Cassidy looked up at Allyson expectantly. She didn't know what to do. She knew what she wanted to do. She wanted to go back into the play pen and play. But she shouldn’t want that. She was an adult. Even if the crinkling diaper she just got changed into, and the paci clipped to her shirt said otherwise. She didn’t know what to do, she just wanted someone to tell her, and Allyson had been telling her what to do so far.

“Are you sure you’re ok Cas?” Allyson said with more concern.

“Yeah I guess. I ummmm.” Cassidy trailed of and nervously shifted around. Allyson saw this kind of behavior before, just not in someone as old as Cassidy.

“Do you want to go back to playing Cassidy?” Allyson fished for a response. Cassidy’s face lit up for a brief moment, before shifting nervously again.

“I don’t know,” Cassidy said quietly. Allyson had a feeling Cassidy did want to continue playing, she just didn’t want to admit that she did.

“Well I have to go back out and help some more, so you’re going to have to go back in there anyway.”

“Oh ok,” Cassidy had to hide the gleeful strut she made to the playpen. Already sitting down with the ball on metal tube toy she was playing with earlier, fidgeting with it before Allyson had time to close the play pen.

“Do you want me to set you up in the bouncer again?” Allyson offered. “Maybe you’d like a nap in a crib?” It sounded like Allyson was teasing, but really she was probing Cassidy a little bit. She wanted to see how much Cassidy really wanted to do. Cassidy glanced at both the bouncer and the series of cribs.

“Uh uh,” she denied the offer quickly before getting back to her toy. Allyson didn’t know if that was a real answer or not, but she also wasn’t going to give Cassidy another out. She let herself give Cassidy permission to go into the play pen like she really wanted to do. If Cassidy wanted to do anything more she would have to come out on her own and say it. Whether she wanted to or not Cassidy seemed content with her toy for now. So Allyson quietly shut the gate to the playpen.

“Be good sweetie,” Allyson said leaving.

“Otay,” Cassidy said her response muffled by her pacifier which found its way into her mouth. Cassidy was relieved once she heard the door close. She was finally alone to play without having to worry about Allyson watching her. When it was just her she didn’t feel as bad about enjoying this, and she was enjoying it. She would have to process the ramifications of this later, right now she just wanted to be in the moment, and let the rest of this day melt away.

Allyson returned to the main temple area. Brita had seemed to be finished the organizing and was busy directing some Biscotti hanging decorations up. Everyone seemed to be getting tired for the day, and seeing her sister approach gave her an excuse to do something else.

“I think we’re good for today,” Brita said finally. The other Biscotti all stepped out with a sigh of relief.

“How’s everything going?” Allyson approached her sister.

“Pretty well,” Brita sighed.

“That doesn’t sound good,” Allyson countered.

“Yeah it’s just,” Brita paused. “Very hard for me to have my day when so much of this stuff is dumb tradition.”

“Yeah,” Allyson said in sympathy. “Try not to worry so much about the collaring, think of what you’re going to have after.”

“Trying to. How’s our troublemaker doing? Clovis wouldn’t shut up about it when he heard.”

“Yeah well that’s,” Allyson paused. “A thing.”

“That doesn’t sound good. She hasn’t been causing any more problems has she?”

“No, kinda the opposite actually,” Allyson spoke quietly. “She’s kind of been getting into it. I found her playing in one of the bouncers when I went to check on her, and she’s just been acting like a kid.”

“Good,” Brita said quickly. “She’s supposed to be, and the more she is the better this whole thing goes.”

“Brita you’re not a little bit concerned by all of this?” Allyson was clearly prompting her sister to change her perspective. Brita glared back a little annoyed.

“Well of course I’m concerned,” Brita shot back. “But I’m not gonna lie, this whole thing has worked out great for me. I’d rather she stay like she is until the ceremony is over.”

“Damn Brit that’s,” Allyson started to scold her but she was cut off.

“Oh please, it’s not like she was gonna get if fixed while she was here. It’s unfortunate but at least we can take advantage of it.”

“You worry me sometimes Brit,” Allyson said quietly.

“Listen, I’ve got a million things I have to worry about that aren’t Cassidy. Let me tackle one big thing at a time. Besides she’s enjoying herself right?”

“Yeah,” Allyson admitted. Though that’s what had her worried. Brita did have a point though. They weren’t going to be able to look at what was happening while the collaring was going on, and it seemed like Cassidy was actually tolerating it, if not having fun with it. It probably could wait. “Do you need me for anything else?”

“You’re good,” Brita said dismissively. “I’ll be right behind you in a little bit I’m sure.”

With Brita’s blessing Allyson moved to retrieve Cassidy and head home. When she got there Cassidy was still happily playing with a large plush cube, suckling away at the pacifier.

“Cassidy dear we’re about to head home,” Allyson announced as she entered the room. Cassidy looked up at her and made a motion of acknowledgement. She began to put the toys she had gotten out back where she found them while Allyson grabbed the diaper bag. Allyson packed the torn skirtalls away. Cassidy was going to have to walk out in just her blouse and her diaper. Hopefully her current would make this less of a fight. Allyson opened the playpen and Cassidy moved to exit with her pacifier still in her mouth. “Hold on diaper check first,” Seeing as Cassidy was behaving, Allyson checked her diaper the normal non magical way, relying on the fade when wet shapes to tell her how wet she was. “Someone had another accident, but you’re good til we get back come on.” Allyson grabbed Cassidy by the hand and walked her out.

Cassidy was very much aware that she was walking around in public with nothing covering her diaper, even with the warm fuzzy feeling she got this was incredibly embarrassing. The teenagers from earlier were right. Only the littlest of babies walked around like this. The older ones always wore something covering their diapers even if it was purposefully ineffective. Cassidy tried her best to hide behind Allyson as the left, but no one seemed to bat an eye. Regardless Allyson did pick up the pace and before long the two were climbing up on Midnight and making their way back to the Callgahorn house.

Cassidy was thankful that they were going back. She could finally investigate what was going on with her. Both what was physically causing this, as well as sort through her own new emotions about the whole thing. Maybe whatever poison was in her was causing her to have positive feelings for it all. It wasn’t unheard of but it was an uncommon effect. Potions and the like didn’t generally affect mental states.

Before Cassidy could think too much about this though a sudden immediate concern came to the forefront. A cramp in her stomach signaled she had to use her diaper, and not in the way that had become almost second nature today.

“Umm Ally,” Cassidy whined. “I gotta go.”

“Huh?” Allyson asked confused. “Just use your diaper sweetie. I can change you when we get back. You’ve been using it all day.”

“No not for that I gotta,” Cassidy paused as she tried to fight off another cramp.

“Oh,” Allyson suddenly understood. She figured that this happening was only a matter of time, but that didn’t mean she was looking forward to it. “Well sweetie I’m sorry but we aren’t going to make it back in time. Just go in your diaper.” Cassidy sighed in defeat as another unbearable cramp hit her. She didn’t have a choice. With a little effort she lifted up from Midnight’s back just slightly, enough to get the leverage to push and fill her diaper.

She had only a brief moment of relief from the pain of the cramps, as she immediately fell back down into Midnight’s saddle, and his trotting would only serve to constantly squish this new mess against her on their way back. Another source of distress was that even though she found the mess to be uncomfortable, a hint of those fuzzy feelings still remained. It seemed even this was triggering something in her.

“It’s ok sweetie,” Allyson sympathetically patted Cassidy’s head. “Just hang in there we’ll be home soon then we can get you changed.” Cassidy put her pacifier in her mouth and kept it there.